5 A.M. and the house is still dark and the household is still sleeping. This day I’ve been dreading for several months. A little over four years ago I knew this day would come, but the past two months it’s been weighing on my mind heavily. Since last week I’ve been meditating on
Joshua 1:9 – Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
Such comfort in these ancient words of Scripture!
Yesterday morning I knew it was time to prepare Jadyn. Since she’s only four and doesn’t really get time, I didn’t want to tell her too soon that she would be having surgery so yesterday morning as we were snuggling together and I told her. Jadyn asked if the special doctor would have toys. I said, “maybe and if they did what would you like?” She replied, “a ring and a pretty necklace. But I’ll give the necklace to you mommy because you need a pretty necklace.” Such sweetness! Several times throughout the day she would if it was time yet to go see the special doctor (and I knew I made the right choice not to tell her too soon).
5:30 A.M. and the house is still dark and sleeping. Stephen, Jadyn and I are off to the hospital. Stephen drops us off at the North Entrance..
5:55 A.M. We check in and I give them my cell phone number for the first time (I have no idea why, but I will repeat this number 6 more times and guess how many times they call me during the surgery……zero!! It must be one of those weird hospital things. When I had Ben, they asked me for my address about 10 times. And every time I wanted to scream……”in labor here and the address hasn’t changed in the last 5 minutes.” Haha, must be a weird hospital thing!). We wait in the common waiting room for about 15 minutes.
6:20 A.M. Our very sweet nurse comes out and we follow her to surgery prep. She gives Jadyn a special nightgown and I try to play it up…..”oh look you get to wear this special nightgown. See how cute it is!!” Yeah she wasn’t buying that AT ALL…..I mean it wasn’t even pink! The nurse verifies my info…..yep, same cell number. She the turns on cartoons for Jadyn and we talk family history. The nurse gives Jadyn a big zip lock full of stickers. Jadyn picks out her favorites and she puts them on the air mask that in an hour will be used to put her to sleep. For about 30 minutes we hung out and then it got busy.
7:05 A.M. The anesthesiologist and his fourth year resident arrive. They both listen to Jadyn’s heart and talk to her……mostly she ignores them….who can blame her……cartoons are way more interesting. While the anesthesiologist and I are going over the consent papers, the surgeon and her resident arrive. Our little space becomes quite crowded. Jadyn is calmly watching cartoons and hugging Jaxon (her special pet). I verify my cell number two more times…..or is it three?!?!? Who knows! The doctors leave and we have more space.
7:20 A.M. time to put on my “special gown”, shoe covers and mask. I gently tell Jadyn that she gets to take a ride on her bed and that I will go with her. And off we go……to the OR. That horrible feeling starts in the pit of my stomach. We walk down long hallways.
7:25 A.M. The nurse says, “ok here’s the OR. You will need to put on your mask.” I take a deep breath. And repeat in my head, “this is just a room. This is just a room with people. Do not be afraid, the Lord is with you.” No matter how many times I’ve entered the OR with one of my babies, I get that same horrible feeling…..there’s just something so hard about leaving your child in the hands of others (even if they are very qualified and experienced).
7:27 A.M. “Ok Jadyn, we are going to move you over to this special bed. You can bring your blanket and your special pet. What’s your pet’s name?” Jadyn replied very softly, “Jaxon.” And the anesthesiologist said, “oh I like that name. Do you spell it with an X?” And Jadyn said, “I don’t know how to spell yet.” Bahahahah. So from now on we will refer to Jaxon as Jaxon with an X. As Jadyn was settled on the operating table (which by the way was covered with these air cushions that were pumped full of warm air……way more comfy than a hard table!) I kept my hand on her arm and gently talked with her. And in my head I was repeating “this is just a room. This is just a room with people. Do not be afraid, the Lord is with you.”
7:35 A.M. the anesthesiologist says, “ok we are going to take this little tube and blow some air on her cheek. This is not the yucky smelling air Jadyn, so you can just breath this in nice and easy.” And to me he says, “this has medication that will help her fall asleep and also help her not to remember this part at all.” As the air moved over her cheek her eyes got all crazy-ish and they kept darting back and forth. Then they took the mask and covered her nose and the anesthesiologist said, “ok mom, she might start fighting, but it will only last 10-15 seconds.” Well, boy did she ever fight that nasty smelling sleep medicine! And I had to laugh a little inside because neither of my boys fought it, but my girly, she wasn’t going out without a fight! And it took her about 30 seconds to calm down and give in, but finally she did and she was asleep. Once she was calm the anesthesiologist said that I could move around by her head and give her a kiss before I left the room. That was a sweet moment.
7:40 A.M. The nurse walked me back to surgery prep and I got our stuff and another nurse took me to pediatric surgery waiting. And there I waited and prayed and ate a banana because I was famished.
8:50 A.M. The surgeon came to let me know that Jadyn was doing great and that the surgery was finished. What a relief!
9:05 A.M. a mystery person called the waiting room phone to let me know that I could go to recovery and be with Jadyn. She gave me directions but I promptly got lost (geographically challenged girl here), but I found a kind hearted nurse who took pity on me and walked me to recovery. Good thing too because I NEVER would have made it with the directions I was given!!
9:14 A.M. Jadyn was pretty “out of it” when I arrived. Poor baby girl just could not keep her eyelids open. Took a little while, but she finally woke up enough to drink some juice and eat some fish crackers. Sweet girl never cried the entire time we were at the hospital!
9:53 A.M. I texted Stephen to let him know we were ready to be discharged!!
10:23 A.M. We are headed home! Yay
Jadyn spent the rest of the day lying on the couch watching movies! Every now and again she would say her tummy was hurting. So we would rearrange the pillows and she was good to go! My mom stayed with three younger kids while the big boys were in school. So she taught school, cleaned my house and picked up my big boys when school got out early!! What a huge blessing. Then in the afternoon, my middle kids went over to her house to play and I fell asleep on the couch for about an hour.
Final thoughts: Jadyn has been my best patient yet! She did amazing. I feel a huge weight lifted now that the surgery is done! Last night I was thinking back over the boys’ surgeries and I was thinking about Jeremiah’s and I remembered carrying him into the OR being hugely pregnant. And I thought to myself, “now who was I pregnant with?” Then I stopped myself and almost laughed out loud (poor Stephen was snoring away, so that would have been rude). Ah, dude, you’ve only been pregnant once!! Haha I must have been really tired.
Day two! Really amazing that this girly had surgery yesterday. Playing pretty much like normal today. Still walking a little hunched over, but not on any pain meds. Praise the Healer of broken hearts and broken bodies. Thank you Jesus!